Akalashi

akalashi @ 2008-12-16T11:15:00

2008-12-16T18:26:10Z

1. Do you like blue cheese? I sure do. In salads. On a burger. It's good in a lot of places.

2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? I went through about two months in the 9th grade when I smoked. Then when I moved to Arizona, I smoked for about two months. I never went back to cigarettes after that.

3. Do you own a gun? My husband owns guns and what's his is mine. ;)

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? I don't.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? Sure don't.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? I think trying to find the hot dog place with jhusdhui was hilarious. I think they're fantastically good some of the time.

7. Favorite Christmas Song? I WANT A HIPPOPOTAMUS FOR CHRISTMAS! (Only a hippopotamus or sheepdog will do...)

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Rockstar. Blue. Yummy goodness.

9. Can you do push-ups? On my cute little exercise ball I can :D

10. What is your favorite movie? Fight Club!

11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? My wedding ring. My right hand ring I got from my mother-in-law.

12. Favorite hobbies? Is hitting people a hobby? Writing.

13. Do you work with people who idolize you? I sure have ;)

14. Do you have ADD? I like to think that I don't but I don't think I'm the best judge of that.

15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? Uh. Hrm. Yeah, I haven't got anything, sorry.

16. What’s your middle name? Shirley :D

17. Name three thoughts at this moment: I love that it's raining outside. I finally have my family and I couldn't be happier. SHEEPDOG PUPPIES!

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday: ...pancakes, coffee, and eggs? :D

19. Current worry right now? I worry about all the responsibility that comes with owning a person. But it doesn't last long at all because I know I'll do a fantastic job.

21. Current hate right now? I have to go to work tomorrow.

22. Favorite place to be? I love to be in bed snugged up with my husband and my boy.

23. How did you bring in the New Year? With sweet, sweet dreams. I'll do better this year, I promise.

24. Where would you like to go? Funkytown? DISNEYLAND. And back to Duck's patio. And Colorado so I can hug my pup. I misses him.

25. Name three people who will complete this? Matt did. J will. Uh. I did! Three!

26. Whose answer do you want to read the most? I liked reading Matt's answers the most. :D

27. What color shirt are you wearing? Green

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Whatever j's sheets are made out of are delicious.

29. Can you whistle? Like one note, yeah.

30. Favorite color? Rainbow. Rainbow's a color, right?

31. Would you be a pirate? If I could do the raping and pillaging, sure. Otherwise no.

32. What songs do you sing in the shower? I'm singing in the rain!

33. Favorite girl’s name? Daphne. Mystery.

34. Favorite boy’s name? Puck.

35. What’s in your pocket right now? A debit card and my license and a stub for Milk.

36. Last thing (Person) that made you laugh? Matt, j, and the gay IHOP waiter :D

37. Best bed sheets as a child? I had NKOTB at some point :D

38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? I sliced my thumb open on a pineapple can lid. I also tore my back up over a metal tent stake. :D

39. What is your favorite snack? Anything dark chocolate.

40. Favorite thing to do on Sundays? Play WoW!

41. Who is your loudest friend? Chris. Hands down.

42. How many dogs do you have? *sobs* None.

43. Does someone have a crush on you? I like to think so.

45. What is your favorite book? The Giver

46. What is your favorite candy? ...everything is my favorite candy.

47. What is your favorite sports team? I default to j's favorite sports teams.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? I haven't thought about my funeral in a long, long time, surprisingly.

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Being gushy sappy close with my boy.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? Today is perfect.

And Then I Was Free

2008-11-07T14:05:59Z

This is the great thing about writing, about having these ideas, and about communication in general: once I get it out, it's out for good.

Yesterday my mood was less than pleasant. Some boys might disagree, but I really was not having a good day. I was mad and the angry was carrying to frustration which was carrying over into stress which was carrying into over really negative thinking and perpetuating the horrible thoughts I'd been having which essentially got me into more trouble than I needed to be in!

But then I got it out. It probably didn't come out as nicely as it should have because I was so frustrated at that point, but it came out, I got a response, and immediately after that my day brightened. Immediately after it'd been dealt with, I was done with it. The resentment that had built up, the anger that came with the resentment, they both finally packed their bags and went on their way.

The trouble with learning more about yourself is that sometimes you find problems you didn't even know you had. You can find anger in places you'd never even think to look. But once you address those, or at least acknowledge them, you can see what an effect they've been having on your life. I'm ready to start that part of my life over again. There are a few more steps I need to do in order to make it a positive experience, but once that's done, I'll be set.

The point is, really, that my mood was a drastic change from being so angry and hurtful that morning to absolutely giddy that evening. A lot of that had to do with the family dinner, I'd think. There's just something wonderful about getting everyone together and going out. Or even staying in! So long as babies and cats aren't what's on the menu.

Can You Smell It?

2008-10-31T14:11:36Z

It's in the air, riding on the waves of the wind, circling around each and every one of us. Few choose to acknowledge it the way that they acknowledge autumn or winter. They don't acknowledge it with dread like they do the coming snow fall, when the flakes are fluttering before their eyes. There are only a select few out of a town, a handful out of a city, that will recognize that tonight is not just the eve of haunting; it's the eve of sanity.

Enjoy your last day before NaNo, my fellow novelists!

Aha!

2008-10-22T12:16:40Z

Last night was an enjoyable bit of spontanaeity. I wanted to see Choke and was afraid it was leaving theaters (...the theater [singular] that it was playing in) by Friday. Because I was working under the assumption I wouldn't have to go to work until 10am (huzzah!) me and the kitten decided we'd go see it last night. Of course half way over I got called and told I was opening, which meant I'd get about four hours to sleep once I got home. I really wanted to see the movie though and he'd already driven all the way out here. It would have been a waste to send him right back home.

Of course, if I were sane, I would have just rented a movie and watched it at home so I could have gone to bed sooner, but I'm not and neither is he (though he did offer to just cancel for the night) so to Choke it was! The movie was actually pretty good. Not stellar of course, but that's just because I don't like how all of his movies/books end up having the same theme to them. The writing is good and the characters are fine and there was enough frontal nudity to keep just about anyone happy and the lesson was there and it was a lot better than what the book sounded on the jacket so I was fantastic.

Plus, I got to spend lots of time with my boy. Seems silly to miss someone after only two days, but luckily I wasn't the only one feeling that. Not only that, but it was incredibly nice to find that I have someone that I can call up like this to go out and do things with randomly. No big plans. We're capable of making plans, sure. We're going to a corn maze for the 1st of November. Someday we'll go to a theater. Next July we're going to New Mexico. We're fantastic at making plans. Sometimes they're just not needed though.

We talked a bit about sexual attraction to people and how both of us seem to need personality, need to know the person, before we can be sexually attracted to them. We talked about love, and how easy it is to fall into it. We talked a lot about communication and the underlying issues in some relationships and how simple they would be to resolve except you have to know how. I talked about that, mostly. He was nice enough to just listen. It wasn't quite a rant. No, it was a bit of a rant. I also talked about how different he's seemed in the past two days. Good different. Something different though. I can't quite put my finger on it. I'd say he's sweeter, but that's not quite it. I'd say it's a whole lot of saying the exact perfect things and just feeling exceptionally close to him, for whatever reason. So there's that. There's also the fact that he looked just damn adorable last night. I...think, maybe, he got pressed up against the car for a moment of groping and pure wanting. Maybe. Can't remember clearly. ;)

Mostly, it was just like that first date, where everything went so wonderfully that I have to wonder when perfection runs out and reality sets in. Except that maybe, just maybe, I chose just right this time. Maybe, just maybe, I was finally able to blend perfection with reality and there's nothing to have run out. I think I'll go with that, even if it's for something as simple as for once I want to be the hopeless romantic.

TMI Tuesday

2008-10-21T15:19:48Z

1. Have you ever felt guilty or ashamed after a sexual experience?

Yep. Except it really wasn't a sexual experience. We'd just opened up our marriage. Well, put a foot in the door of open anyhow. I'd had permission for years to kiss other people but never really took advantage of it. One night at a house party I got really, really drunk and was making out with my best friend's boyfriend's roommate. He was pierced up and down. I had absolutely no intentions of having sex, I just wanted to kiss. But afterwards (so it was like 4am) I felt guilty so called up Matt, woke him from a dead sleep, and confessed to kissing another boy. He just laughed at me, but I honestly couldn't sleep for two days after. Haven't felt guilt since then, but that's because we actually discussed our limits and boundaries after that.

2. Did you ever own a fake ID?

Never had a need for one.

3. How often do you tell white lies? Is it with or without thinking?

Not that often. It's always with thinking though.

4. On a scale of 1-10, how well do you receive constructive criticism?

-5

5. Have you ever shaved your pubic hair?

I do it frequently. I just haven't decided if I like it more than not having to shave it.

Bonus: What percentage of women do you think are capable of handling being in a "friends with benefits" relationship? How about men?

I had a fantastic friends with benefits relationship. I handled it well, I think. He obviously did not. You'll know this because he's not around anymore. I think most men and most women cannot handle these kinds of relationships. I sure wouldn't know though, because I don't know the average guy or girl and I sure don't know what an average relationship looks like. ;)

TMI T...hursday

2008-10-17T02:13:25Z

1. What do you do that sends a clear signal to your partner that you're interested in an intimate evening?

I usually say so. Or I drag them off to the bedroom. I can play in other rooms, but sometimes it's nice to just have that sectioned off space that the bed provides.

2. How important is foreplay to an exciting evening?

Intellectual foreplay is an absolute must.

3. What is the first thing you do during foreplay or what is the first thing you like done to you?

I like to pinch or pull hair. Then I like to poke. Then I like to gently graze any area that interests me. If someone else starts it, I can't get into it much at all.

4. Are you a one and done kind of partner (20 minutes or so) or do you like intimacy sessions longer than 60 minutes?

Uh. Depends. I like to take my time in playing, but once I've had my orgasm I'm done, for the most part.

BONUS: If you are interested in sex with a same-sex partner, what would be the first thing you'd like to touch on that other person, and why? (For those already in same sex relationships...what was the first thing you touched, or if you were interested in a relationship with the opposite sex, what would be the first thing you touched?)

The first thing I did touch was her mouth. I'd heard women made better kissers so I wanted to find out. I disagree. Then, their clit. I don't know why. After that, their breasts. That clit was what eluded me. I wanted to play with it more than anything.

Cheating!

2008-10-15T06:30:15Z

I cheated on my last entry and I'm afraid today's won't be much better either. I'm exhausted. Today has been a long, emotional day. I'm tired of emotions. I'd like to give mine away. If I put them in a box and say they're free, I wonder if someone would come and take them away. Some of them are wonderful I know, but some of them I could do without. The worst is when it's logic vs emotion. I have an especially hard time with those kinds of days.

Know what else I don't like? When my cat decides to be ill in my bed. It prevents me from going to sleep despite it already being 11:23pm. Way past my bedtime.

On the plus side, I was having a terrible day. God awful I don't want to be here kind of day. Luckily, we had hardly any kids at work which meant I got an extended break. Better than that, I got to spend all that time talking to one of my friends that I have at work, someone who can usually make things all better. So when I needed that the most, I got it. I love when little things work out like that for me.

Also, totally addicted to WoW. Because I'm the cheapest Hunter in the game and am still BM spec'd even at level 62 (and a half!) I can tame exotic pets?! Frealz. So I'll be doing that this week. Also, someone heard my prayer for having more pet slots in the stable because really, I need three pets just to experience the different families and what they have to offer and I needed at least one more slot for the pets I have to pick up to teach me the things I don't already have and I got one on top of that for -- you guessed it -- the exotic pet! Huzzah! I usually really only use one pet at a time anyhow so there's no real need for more than three slots but eh, I'm not complaining.

I head a dream about WoW last night. That doesn't help anyone believe I'm not addicted, right?

Also, hey! I get two weekends in a row away. Away from everything. My last weekend with J was too short (in my opinion) and yet ridiculously wonderful at the same time. A lot of the time I spend with him feels like it ought to be a scene from a movie. The only downside to it is when I miss a weekend with him I miss him terribly and then I feel needy and then I end up having some talk without myself about being clingy and all that jazz. (Doesn't make me stop looking forward to the weekend any more than usual though.)

Oh! I got my hair done again. Less bangs because I never knew what to do with them. More color on top where it can be seen. I'm trying to convince Nancy that she wants to do my hair rainbow colored. I also told Matt that when I finally get my braces, the requirement for the place I go to to get them will not only be that they'll take payments, but that instead of only getting two colors each month I can have the whole fekkin rainbow in my mouth. He says they ought to do it since they just have to snap the things in place. It's a requirement. (Matt looked silly back in High School with his braces because he has little chicklet teeth. Ever so adorable. We weren't ever officially dating while he had braces, but I remember them fondly.)

Writing. I wish I could write. My characters hate me. Typically when the voices in your head stop talking to you, you're 'cured'. In my case, it means something's horribly wrong. I guess my real life has been dramatic enough that none of them have felt the need to come out and play. Perhaps it's because the strongest voice belongs to a girl and I'm not so keen on girls. Eventually I'll listen and just write down their adventures. I think for NaNo this year, I'll end up just doing a collection of erotic work. I've always wanted to do it and even if it might be against the 'rules', it'll get me writing, and that's what's really important. Besides, if I don't get something out soon, it'll be poetry and jeeebus christmas on a stick, no one wants to read poetry. No one.

Fin.

Lyrics (Laziness?)

2008-10-14T06:30:56Z

This is J's song, whether he likes it or not.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to get you but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love (love)
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Deja Vu

2008-10-08T13:39:14Z

I skipped a week because I was too good for questions last week so I'm playing catch up. I actually have one more to go but I sure don't have mind enough to get those particular questions done so those will have to wait.

1. What is the strangest thing you have ever inserted or seen inserted (in a sexual manner) in person?

It's not really strange but I watched some porn where some guy shoved an entire meal of fruit up in his porn star's coochie before eating it, like he was adding cream to his fruit or something. They made it look tasty but every time I get a taste of myself I'm thinking 'Oh for crying out loud, I hope they got paid a ton more for that particular porn'.

2. Have you ever had sex anyone whose name started with a J?

Yes and no. You guys know him by J. His name really doesn't start with J. (Although when we were painting and they asked for his name, I about gave it to them as J.)

3. Have you ever been outside completely naked?

Let's think about all the times I've actually been outside and feel safe in saying no.

4. Do you prefer music, tv, or other noise in the background when you have sex?

When I was 16 and Matt and I were fooling around in his house with three adult women walking around past his bedroom door constantly, we had Arthur on. Now I prefer music. But. I have it on for sleeping and it just so happens that other things occur before falling asleep. Sometimes. ;)

5. Have you ever used ice for sexual purposes?

If you haven't used ice for sexual purposes, you aren't really my friend.

Bonus: Have you ever been propositioned for group sex?

In all of my roleplays and on on-line, group sex was about the only thing I ever did get propositioned for. If group means more than two people and myself, no. Not intentionally anyhow. The folk I work with and alcohol don't mix well. ;)

akalashi @ 2008-10-08T06:19:00

2008-10-08T13:33:30Z

1. What do you feel is the difference between sexy and erotic?
In my mixed-up mind, sexy is a way you act or a way you dress in order to provocate someone else. Erotic is something seemingly normal which create feelings in you that aren't necessarily sexual, as in you don't feel them just in your loins (as you might with seeing someone dressed sexily) but instead something that touches you on a few different levels, something that excites your mind or emotions along with your loins.

Example: Seeing J all dressed up might be sexy, but seeing him on all fours using his mouth is erotic.

2. Do you believe there is one right person (i.e. soul mate) for you out there in the world, or that there can be many different potential mates that you could live blissfully with?

AMAZING THE TIMING OF THIS QUESTION! (I srsly didn't plan this.) I really honestly believe there are many people we could be blissfully happy with. I don't believe there is just one person in the whole wide world for each of us. As J said: What if there's an odd number of people? I know there are people we're going to get along with better because they can related to us better or fundamentally they understand us better or they make us feel different than anyone else but as far as soul mates go, that's a negative, a no, I don't believe anyone in my life is more spiritually connected to me than anyone else by default.

3. Do you need to hear "I love you" or similar words on a regular basis from your partner?

Yes and no. Matt and his mom believe you should always tell someone you love them as the last thing you say to them just in case you never see them again. Matt tells me he loves me about 18 million times a day. I need to hear it from him every single day because I know how important it is to him that he says it/I know it. I need to say it to him too. With Kayn, I don't ever really need to hear those particular words from him because he shows me how much he cares through his actions and his words. All I need from him in this regard is to allow me to say it to him, because I am one of those people that does have to say it every now and again. With J, I need to hear it less, simply because I can always feel it when I'm around him. He shows it in so many different ways that saying it almost seems redundant (although I certainly don't mind hearing it, because it's sweet).

4. What feeling do you have the most difficulty expressing?

Uh. Amazingly good timing on this one as well, eh? Anything other than happiness? ;)

5. What is worse - physical, mental or cyber cheating?

Mental? Let's change that to emotional. There we go. Emotional cheating is the absolute worse. Even if your SO never touches another person in their life, as soon as their heart strays, you can feel it. They could fuck around until the cows come home and you may never, ever find out, but if their heart's not in the relationship, you're going to feel that the instant it changes.

Bonus (as in optional): The Kinsey scale attempts to describe a person's sexual history or episodes of their sexual activity at a given time. It uses a scale from 0, meaning exclusively heterosexual, to 6, meaning exclusively homosexual. Where are you - TODAY - on the scale?

I'm thinking about gendery fuckery and how much I want to dress a particular boy up as a girl and then nail him like a boy. Would Kinsey consider that a 0 since all I'm thinking about is a boy or do I get a special number because I'm imagining him as a girl and I'm a girl? Or do I go straight back to a 0 because in my imagination it's still a boy and a girl, even if the roles are reversed? Fun stuff. I'm going to say 0.

akalashi @ 2008-10-02T07:12:00

2008-10-02T14:17:24Z

This is just going to be one of those really quick little journal entries. Matt finally made a journal as well, so he can finally see what the thought out end product of my ramblings looks like. Crow, Jhusdhui, if you're so inclined, you can add him. His name is invoice_ninja ;)

J's been sick this week (which is why his journal hasn't been as riveting as usual) and I've been having deep serious talks every night and Crow's been having "fun" at work. None of us are doing so well! But Crow and I live on parallels so I suppose I should have warned her that she was going to have a weird week. It's beginning to look as though J might be in on that as well.

(As I'm typing this, I'm thinking that if we stopped calling him J and I made you type out his name every single time, you'd no longer forget how to spell it and then we wouldn't have to call him J at all. ;) )

Eventually I'm going to do another post. Sometime really soon, actually, because I've got it all written out in my handy-dandy little notebook (thank you so much, Steve, for that phrase that will forever be stuck in my brain) but I just haven't typed it up here. Something about rituals and ceremonies and whether or not they're important and something about something else that I don't remember right now because it was so totally three days ago and I sure can't remember anything that I've written three days ago.

In the dream world, I had a dream. It was a very serious kind of dream too. J was sitting on his pillow in front of me and for some reason we were discussing collars. I told him that I'd be doing a whole lot more with him before I collared him and he looked just so shocked and hurt, like I was telling him that we were going to end things and that was that. I have no idea where it came from, really, because collars sure haven't been on my mind.

At any rate, it's time for me to bounce out of here. Literally. Because someone thought it was a good idea to remind me that I had ice cold Rockstars in the fridge. This morning. Like, for breakfast. :D <3

Dreams, Dreams, Dreams

2008-09-24T14:01:02Z

I think it was only because I read somewhere that you can't ever remember what you read in your dreams that what I write or read in my dreams always stands out to me now. And yes, sometimes it's gibberish, but I know that waking up. Usually it's actual words though, and I remember them well.

All of this was leading up to work. It was a holiday and I'd been warned not to be late, but no one was calling either, so maybe they didn't realize I was there.

Right before getting to work, I was going grocery shopping with Chris of all people, and she was taking her sweet time, making us even more late (because hey, she works there too).

But what the dream was mostly about was the fact that I was not going to work to spend time with my boy. We chose to go see a movie in a dinky little theater. I remember holding his hand on the way in there and both of us laughing when we realized we were being put in a room with just a few chairs scattered about and not an actual theater. For once we both sat on the floor, backs against the wall. I think he had a friend with him too, because if we'd been alone, he sure wouldn't have been dressed.

At any rate, the movie was just awful and to keep us entertained, he passed me a box of colored chalk. I think he was trying to draw himself a snail. Me, on the otherhand, I was writing Akalashi <3's jhusdhui in the corner. My name was in green and yellow and his name was in a color that I can't describe, because it's the same color of his eyes. But I wrote it over and over again, making it good and dark so it couldn't be missed, and I remember writing it just like that. I don't know if it's because seeing it with the lowercase j is exciting to me in some way or if that's the way I read it most often (because that's how it is on his journal).

After that though, like eight more people came into the room. In the middle of the movie. A bad movie. I was perplexed and he just started laughing and so we decided to leave. I remember feeling bad, like what if the movie all of a sudden started to get good and make sense? But honestly it didn't matter, because I'd had plenty of fun writing on the floor in there. And basically, it was just about being with him anyhow.

:D

TMI Tuesday

2008-09-17T07:24:24Z

1. Ever been stalked by an ex? Stalked an ex? Or stalked 'a you'd like to be'?
If by 'stalking an ex' you mean have I looked him up on MySpace to see if he's still alive, yes. Or if you mean I've wished an ex happy birthday even though we weren't in constant contact after the break up, yes. Yes I've stalked. Never been stalked. I always stalk my like to be's. I try to get as much information on them as I can to see if they're worth having. ;)

2. How often do you reach orgasm during sex? Has then historically been true?
I'm going to say 99.9% of the time. There have been times where I've had sex just for the closeness of it and not because I wanted an orgasm, which would be why there's that .01% of the time where I don't reach orgasm. This is historically true. Orgasms have never been a problem for me.

3. Teeth when used during oral stimulation, good or bad?
Good. Not like chomping down as hard as you can kind of use of teeth, but a little nibble and a little scrape of the teeth is never a bad thing. (Yes, I know at least one of my readers is going to disagree with me. I completely understand.)

4. How many times is the most you have ever had sex in a 24 hour period? How many different sexual partners have you had in a 24 hour period? Seven? Eight? I wasn't even old enough to be having sex back then. How many different sexual partners in 24 hours? Um. One.

5) Would you rather run naked through a crowded place or have someone email your deepest secret too all your friends?
Feel free to email my darkest secret to all my friends. Most of them already know. ;)

Bonus: Have you ever kissed your partner on the lips after oral sex without brushing teeth, nor washing/gargling/rinsing out mouth? Turn on or off? Sure have. I'm not going to jump up and down and celebrate the fact that I've just tasted myself but it's not like I'm going to go screaming out of the room either. It's not really a big deal. It happens.

TMI Tuesday

2008-09-09T06:43:35Z

Questions are always fun, so I've just decided to go ahead and answer a ton of them from when I stopped doing them. Maybe I'll remember to get back on track tomorrow when the actual week's questions are released. No promises though. ;)

1. What is your language pet peeve. (example 'hot water heater', why would you heat hot water)
Saying 'Pacific' for 'specific'.

2. What is your favorite word? Both dirty and clean?
Lunch! Cock.

3. What is the one word you cannot spell?
I have a ton of these. I have dictionary.com open in another window usually so I can check myself. I found out just recently I'd been spelling 'explanation' wrong for oh, all my life.

4. What is the one word you always pronounce wrong?
Jhusdhui *snickers*

5. If you could erase one popular catchphrase from the english language, what would it be?
Like, totally.

Bonus (as in optional): The late, and very hot Michael Hutchence (INXS) once sang, "Words are weapons, sharper than knives" . What is the most hurtful thing you have ever said to anyone? Was it deliberate or accidental? What was the most hurtful thing ever said to you? Do you think it was deliberate or accidental?

There was this girl who thought she was better than me and instead of just taking my best friend away from me and leaving it at that, she felt the need to tell me things she thought were wrong with me without actually knowing me. Why it was so hurtful, I don't know. But it was. It was incredibly intentional.

The most hurtful thing I've ever said to someone? I don't know. I guess I'd have to ask everyone that's not my friend anymore to know!

1. What is your definition of romantic?
Thoughtful.

2. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?
Yep!

3. Is your significant other romantic?
Everyone I'm involved with happens to be very romantic, intentionally or not.

4. Have you ever chastised a SO for not being romantic enough or too romantic?
Sure have!

5. What do you consider a grand romantic gesture? Have you ever been the recipient or giver of one?
Learning me intimately, finding out what really pulls at my heart strings, and delivering it. I've been the recipient and the giver.

6. If you have done something romantic to get laid, did it work? If not, why and how did that affect your romantic tendencies in the past.
No. Unfortunately sex hasn't ever really been a huge priority in my life.

7. What is the most romantic thing you have ever done? Had done for you?
I've done lots of little romantic things, varying from buying roses for someone that wasn't expecting them to making my husband a Boomkin on his birthday. Most romantic that I've had done for me was on one of our anniversaries, my husband and I took the day off and we went to the Chinese Cultural Center for lunch, saw The Lion King in the IMAX theater, and he bought me something, I'm sure. (See J, you're right: memories are better gifts than material things.)

1. What is your favorite song to have sex to?
Whatever fits the person I'm sexing the best. So Depeche Mode's Enjoy The Silence, Dope's Die Motherfucker Die, or Dirty Three (because that's the association I have now and I know it's not a *song* but eh.)

2. What is your vision of hell?
Being a housewife in the 50's

3. In the film made of your life, who will play you?
I will play myself, thank you very much.

4. What is the one thing you most urgently need to tell your mom?
We're a couple years too late for that.

5. What will be carved onto your tombstone?
ADORABLE

And the bonus: What is your drag name (which would be, first name: the name of your first pet; last name: the name of the street you grew up on)? Molly Saturn ...gross.

1. Are you truly politically correct? Be honest.
Not a chance.

2. Will you ever streak in public during rush hour?
Never.

3. Would you ever do something sexual in public (more than 20 people around)?
Yeah. They call them 'Dungeons' and they're made for that.

4. Do you ever not have good table manners?
Often. I can't stop talking.

5. Do you ever fantasize about a public sexual act? Describe.
I guess wanting to walk my pup around in public on a leash would be a public sexual act, kind of. Yes?

Bonus (as in optional): Have you ever gone through a true sexual fantasy? Describe.
I don't have to describe this. It happens often. :D

You find a fairy. With a wave of their wand they can change anything for you.

What is the one thing you would change about your body?
I'd like for my busted shoulder to be fixed :D

What is the one personality trait you would change?
Ha. Yeah right.

What is the one thing about your job you would change?
The corporate bullshit.

What is the one thing about your home you would change?
Rise in value so I can sell it and move? :D Does that count?

What is the one thing about your Significant Other you would change?
Negative. Firstly, I have no business changing anything about anyone else. Secondly, I've chosen well in every person that I'm linked to. They need no changing.

Who is the one person you would poof out of your life and why?
None. I don't let people drag me down so no one needs to go.

Who is the one person you would poof back in and why?
None. If they're not in my life anymore, that's their problem, not mine.

1. When was the last time someone hit on you? What went down?
People don't hit on me. I guess if we're talking random occurances, some guy at the club the last time I was there.

2. If you were single and could be with any one person, who would it be (thinking singer/actor or someone famous here, but whatever)?
I don't have to be single and I'm pretty much covered, thanks so much.

3. Have you ever had done anything sexual in your office or your place of employment?
*_*

4. Do you apologize when you make a mistake? How do you react when someone calls you out?
Absolutely. I'd rather I get to apologize before someone goes 'Hey stupid, that was your bad'.

5. Top or bottom?
Top! :D

Bonus (as in optional): Bonus: How old were you when you first had a willing sexual experience?
16 and some change

1. Describe the perfect date for YOURSELF... what you would enjoy most.
I like emotional intimacy and making people squirm. I've had lots of fantastic 'dates' in that sense.

2. Do you lean more toward being submissive or dominant?
Submissive. (I'm just checking to see how well you read.)

3. What do you usually wear to bed?
The softest snuggliest pj pants in the world and whatever t-shirt I was wearing that day.

4. Have you ever seen a counselor?
-.-;

5. Lights on or off?
Both.

Bonus (as in optional): Bonus: Have you or a partner ever faked an orgasm?
That's a negative, Captain!

And that's all. Feel free to copy to your own journals (Yeah, all like 2 of you that read this) and answer them yourself!

akalashi @ 2008-08-28T07:01:00

2008-08-28T14:05:26Z

Sometimes I get carried away in that flood of 'Oh yes, life is perfect and wonderful and right now is the best!' and when I feel like that, there's nothing good that can be put into a journal. So instead of discussing the big important events and overanalyzing them here (but oh gosh, I don't have to because he does the *same thing*) I have to make a few mental notes for myself.

One, I really did forget to ask whether or not he ended up liking the movie we saw. *laughs*

Two, I really need to find a whole new layout for this thing because the tiny text drives me bonkers.

Three, I don't know that I really have a third but I can't leave it at two. That's just ridiculous. I hope they have a snails to paint.

Kayn liked his present! And we discovered that their town is like microsized. Boshy will like hers whenever she gets it. Crow's lacking in the gift department so we'll have to fix that up soon. xD

Other than on the hunt for a new layout, and on the hunt for furniture in SL, I pretty much only have Kayn's workbooks to finish constructing (I know you're excited about that, so you don't have to hide it by pretending you're not *snickers*) and fun to look forward to!

That is the official update. ;)

akalashi @ 2008-07-26T13:49:00

2008-07-26T20:50:16Z

TYPE O

You scored 58 imagination, 75 confidence, 92 dominance, and 29 generosity!

You are a KINKY, CONFIDENT, DOMINANT lover who prefers to RECEIVE. This means that: You like relatively kinky sex, and you have the great imagination that will always keep your partner guessing and excited! There's no getting bored with you around, you could never settle for dull sex, you want something fun and new all the time. You aren't afraid to try out anything you hear about. You might just be an intelligent lover who needs to be mentally engaged, or perhaps you have some dirty dark secret kinky desires, but either way, you're never boring. You are pretty confident in bed. This means that you know you can please your lover. Maybe you've read a lot of sex manuals, or have the experience from previous lovers, or just tend to be skilled at whatever you get your hands on, but you're good and you know it. You can really get results and know that you have pure talent, so you won't be hiding away shy, pretending to be all innocent. Your partners love your naughty self assurance, you don't hesitate and this makes you a sensational lover. You tend to be dominant in bed, so you prefer to be the one giving the orders than taking them. Maybe you like the power, or just like controlling the pace, perhaps your partner likes to be dominanted, or maybe you get a kick out of the whole master/slave relationship, it could be something as small as liking to be on top during sex and tie up your lover to tease them, or it could be as kinky as them having to ask your permission to do anything at all. Either way, you are firm and you enjoy it! You would rather Receive than Give. This usually applies more to Oral sex than anything else, and other types of foreplay. This could be for a number of reasons. Maybe you are just very hooked on the sensation of orgasm, maybe you feel you deserve to be treated like a god/goddess, maybe you just aren't confident about your skills when it comes to returning the favour. Maybe you are lazy. Or maybe your partner loves to give and that suits you fine, so everyone is happy. Either way, remember to be a giver sometimes too, as long as your partner likes it. WE SUGGEST YOU TRY: Fluffy handcuffs, soft whips. You have the kinky factor that will mean you'll enjoy playing games in bed, and using these fluffy cuffs rather the metal sort of the just a silk scarf means you will be tied firmly, but comfortably. You can't get away, but you wont be in any pain. However, we know you'd rather do this to your lover than be tied up yourself, so feel free, or take turns! Enjoy some light flogging with a soft whip, just to see if you like being spanked, or use your hand. Nothing too heavy, but a little bit kinky.

Oooh, A Journal!

2008-07-19T11:01:11Z

I decided I may as well blow the dust off this journal here and give it a good leafing through. Only I got as far as blowing the dust off it and then I wanted to write.

Right now, I don't actually have anything to stay. I think I just bared my soul to Crow well enough that I don't need to confide in my journal. My heart seems to be well taken care of at the moment. I can only hope that the next visit will go smoothly. It should, since I don't have anything to do with it. At this moment, I'm only hoping that I'll actually get to *see* them. No point in trying to plan anything, really. Except birthday spankings really should occur. If they don't, I'll just tack on one per day until I can see him again. *grins*

I need to get to writing again. I've been doing some writing in my notebooks but my typing skill seems to have disappeared on me. I'm so used to shorthand in SL now that I can barely type out half my words. I know I started a table of stories that I ought to complete. I think, the truth of it is, I just prefer the darker look of a journal and that's why I am so happy with my Stitches journal. Trouble is, it holds so much of my past that I don't want to accidentally go back over and long for. I've done a fantastic job of getting over that, that I don't want to invite it back into my life. I don't necessarily want to make my journal here any darker either. I may have to, just to content myself enough to want to write in it again.

Aside from the stories in my head, the stories that can be opened up by simply letting a character talk are ready to be written. I think I need a new character now too, something that fits into my life a little better.

Also, I've been wanting to watch Lord of the Rings lately so maybe I'll pop that in and admire Legolas for a while. Stellar idea!

TMI Tuesday

2007-10-09T14:17:08Z

1. Wash up, cuddle or fall asleep?
Wash up. If my partner's willing to do that part for me, cuddle and then usually fall asleep.

2. Have you ever fake orgasms?
No need. My point isn't to always have an orgasm, just to have some fun and to create intimacy.

3. In any 24 hour period, what is the most number of time you have ever had sex?
Back when I was just discovering sex, we had sex pretty continuously for one day. I don't remember how long.

4. Have you ever had sex or give/received oral sex while you were driving a car?
I tried to give oral sex once while my husband was driving but he's too safety oriented for that.

5. What do you think the average number of sexual partners your sex has in their lifetime (so for me a male)? Do you think most people lie when asked?
10, if they have some fun before they settle down.

Bonus (as in optional):Can men and women be "just friends?" (Explain)
I used to think yes but it would appear I was wrong. I think they can be, but in order for it to happen there has to be some amount of sexual tension. Even if it's never acted on, it just makes both parties feel good, I guess. I've been friends with plenty of guys that I didn't have any sexual interest in whatsoever but it would appear that the boys in my life, once they found out that there wasn't a chance I'd be sleeping with them, moved on.

akalashi @ 2007-09-23T22:14:00

2007-09-24T05:15:51Z